Moat of Bleah

My energy level drops as soon as I get home from work.  All the to-do’s I saw in the morning’s hustle and bustle seem way too large to tackle.  I have accepted my lack of time to organize and clean like I used to.  However, I am not willing to accept this energy drop when I walk in the door.  It is like I work hard to arrive excitedly to the comforts of home and cross the Moat of Bleah.

I would end up with goats in my moat....

When I was a kid in school, getting home automatically meant, “SNACK!!”  Then, onward to homework or some activity.  Now, the thought of doing home WORK at 8 p.m. is simply mind-numbing to me.  And body-numbing.

Granted, I do get up at 5:30 a.m.  Sometimes my husband sets his dastardly alarm for 4:30 a.m. so he can work out.  Then, I wake up again at 5:00 a.m. when the dog is barking excitedly because it is time for them to run.  Legitimately, I can give myself slack because it truly has been a long day already.

I despise feeling sluggish, though.  There are so many things I want to do.  I mean, I can understand why I don’t feel like dusting or making dinner….but to even feel too bleah to walk or garden or tackle an exciting project really bugs me.  I know from experience that if I can get motivated after dinner is cooked, eaten and cleaned up, I will work outside until dark.  I just need a way to leap-frog myself over the Moat of Bleah.

Would immediately changing out of my daytime, office clothes into a cute exercise outfit complete with my walking shoes be enough?  How about taking it one step further and walking one, 15-minute mile on the treadmill?  Would that get the old adrenalin pumping?  I want to greet and treat my family and home with the same energy I have when I am leaving them in the mornings!

Sometimes I tell myself it is okay to crash after dinner.  After all, I am not home every evening because of meetings, sporting events, etc. so sometimes, it just feels darn good to crash.  Even hamsters hop off their wheel.

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over yet expecting different results.

Then, Saturday comes and I can’t possibly get everything done that I didn’t do through the week.  Drat.

I’m fairly certain it is psychosomatic – like wanting a snack after school  Necessary some days, but mainly a trigger and response.  Maybe it is a response to being so busy all the time with must-do’s that when it is not an absolute-must-do, I don’t?

I will try new ways of catching my second wind.  Maybe it will be fun to try several ideas and see which ones work and which ones fail… If I end up in the moat, surely that will at least motivate me to outswim the gators?  Maybe I’ll even try eating a Blizzard or Snickers on the drive home to see if that gives me the energy boost I need to propel myself on to a fully active evening.  😉

I’m open to suggestions!

About Marla Rose

This blog documents our farm life in central Illinois with photographs, experiences, and a dash of cooking. Pour a cup of coffee and enjoy sharing part of our lives!
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2 Responses to Moat of Bleah

  1. I never feel like doing anything when I get home from work either. I finally figured out if I have a snack then sit or lie down for a few minutes, I’m ready to go outside or otherwise be productive.

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