Is it okay to give in to a bad mood and just accept it? I’m not in a bad mood about anything in particular … but I have the feeling that
I people would be better off if they left me alone. I usually feel this way after the chaos of the holidaze. I want to withdraw from the world for awhile. I fear I will sound ungrateful; when actually, I would like time to be grateful. I would like to retreat into a small, quiet, warm world of books, journals, candles, hot coffee, pillows and blankets. And chocolate. 🙂
Now that I am writing, I realize it is not a bad mood that I am in. Not at all. I am in the mood to retreat, relax and reflect upon all the planning, doing and going the last several weeks. Ahhhh, the clarity that writing can bring. Here I was, beating myself up for feeling grouchy after all the holiday wonder and joy. The truth is, I need time to let it all soak in and to get myself re-adjusted from hustling and bustling. I need to decompress. I also want to make notes of what I loved, liked and did not love or like about the season. Those notes need to get inserted into my November 2013 planner so I can plan accordingly. If there are really unpleasant tasks or events – is there a way to avoid them next year?
A winter retreat with nothing more pressing than making the coffee. Is it possible? Is it selfish to say, “Love ya o’family of mine … you’re on your own for a day?” Would my peaceful retreat be ruined by reminding my loved ones that ironing a wrinkled shirt does not constitute an emergency on my part and that I really mean I am not making their meals or cleaning up from their efforts?
I think I’ll get a cup of coffee and grab the couch that recently was vacated. 🙂 There is even a light layer of snow this Saturday morning. All is calm …