Is it okay to give in to a bad mood and just accept it?  I’m not in a bad mood about anything in particular … but I have the feeling that  I   people would be better off if they left me alone.  I usually feel this way after the chaos of the holidaze.  I want to withdraw from the world for awhile.  I fear I will sound ungrateful; when actually, I would like time to be grateful.  I would like to retreat into a small, quiet, warm world of books, journals, candles, hot coffee, pillows and blankets.  And chocolate.  🙂

Now that I am writing, I realize it is not a bad mood that I am in.  Not at all.  I am in the mood to retreat, relax and reflect upon all the planning,  doing and going the last several weeks.  Ahhhh, the clarity that writing can bring.  Here I was, beating myself up for feeling grouchy after all the holiday wonder and joy.  The truth is, I need time to let it all soak in and to get myself re-adjusted from hustling and bustling.  I need to decompress.  I also want to make notes of what I loved, liked and did not love or like about the season.  Those notes need to get inserted into my November 2013 planner so I can plan accordingly.  If there are really unpleasant tasks or events – is there a way to avoid them next year?

A winter retreat with nothing more pressing than making the coffee.  Is it possible?  Is it selfish to say, “Love ya o’family of mine … you’re on your own for a day?”  Would my peaceful retreat be ruined by reminding my loved ones that ironing a wrinkled shirt does not constitute an emergency on my part and that I really mean I am not making their meals or cleaning up from their efforts?

I think I’ll get a cup of coffee and grab the couch that recently was vacated. 🙂 There is even a light layer of snow this Saturday morning. All is calm …